I’ve been quiet. So quiet. In fact, I don’t even believe I’ve written a post in months!
Honestly, I haven’t done much of anything since his birth besides contract work, housekeeping (somewhat), and survival.
For me, this season of motherhood revolves around the theme of survival. With very little sleep (both of my boys wake 3-4 times each night, and the baby won’t sleep unless he is in my arms!) and very little time, I find myself just doing the essentials.
Showing has become a luxury afforded when the husband is home because the toddler is on month 3 of his nap strike.
Making dinner wouldn’t even be possible without the baby carrier, and many nights I find myself turning to the easiest dinner solution: something frozen! (If you know me, you know this is totally uncharacteristic! )
So lately, I’ve been wondering: am I the only one in survival mode? Am I the only mother struggling to adjust to two kiddos? Why does this seem so challenging to me?
Last week, I found myself becoming a little resentful. I was dreaming of a full nights sleep, a hot cup of coffee, a clean house, and all the projects that I need to get finished. Everyone says, “enjoy this time, it goes by fast.” But they don’t have 10 loads of laundry waiting, a sink full of dirty dishes, and an inbox of emails that need answered. It’s hard to have so much that needs done and so little time to do it. It wears on your mind, your body, and your attitude.
I was frustrated. Even a little angry. And then came the guilt.
I should be enjoying this time. I should cherish each moment. I should be able to get everything done while still having time to enjoy!
That’s when I realized: I can’t do it all without an attitude adjustment.
Why can’t I try to enjoy my little ones, even despite the mess? Why can’t I take this season as an opportunity to teach my toddler how to “help” and my baby how to play more independently?
Just like in football: sometimes you have to get your head back in the game.
All this week, I tried to make the best of each circumstance in the moment without begrudging the task or wishing I was doing something different. Truly I feel like a different person.
Instead of whining about my toddler who refused his favorite foods, I took it as an opportunity to try something new. Instead of complaining about his behavior issues, I channeled that energy to think of a new behavior system (I’ll share my free printable sticker chart sometime soon!).
While I was awake at night, I took that opportunity to pray over my children and our family instead of worrying about when I will get some sleep or how tired I will be in the morning.
This season of motherhood still IS overwhelming, but I can choose how I respond to those demands. Instead of wallowing in self-pity, I’m choosing joy in this season. I hope you do too!
I’m not going to promise a plethora of new blog posts, but I will update you when I can! I have several reviews, that free printable sticker chart, and about a million new recipes that I can’t wait to share with you.