For me, this post (and upcoming series) is tough… I mean, really tough. I’ve never spoken out about my self-image issues and knowing that my friends, family, and even strangers will be reading these posts…. it’s scary. But I am motivated and I am hoping that my journey might be able to help someone in the future! So here goes nothing!
If you know me, for years I have struggled with my weight. I started off as a skinny kid, but when I was about 12, something happened. I gained nearly 70 pounds in a year, which just started my weight gain. By my junior year of high school, I weighed nearly 190 lbs.
I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism in 2010 and have been struggling to maintain my current weight ever since. I’m a pretty outgoing person and I rarely talk about my weight issues because I am embarrassed. I am not lazy, stupid, or uneducated about healthy habits. On the contrary, I try to eat healthy, moderately exercise, and keep myself busy. I guess that with all the other things I am doing, my body is the last thing on my mind.
Anyway, I digress.
I’m a fairly short person, which makes the challenge of maintaining a healthy weight even more difficult. At 5’2, my weight is at 184 (not my all time high of 197). This makes my BMI: 33.7 or obese.
At 154 lbs I would be considered just overweight.
At 134lbs. I would be considered at a normal weight.
That’s 50 lbs!
I haven’t lost more than 10 lbs at any time in my life!
Now this journey isn’t just about weight. It is about feeling better and being healthy.
Since having my son over 4 months ago, I have been suffering with muscle aches, joint pain, headaches, severe fatigue (to the point where I can’t even get out of bed). After a a bunch of tests, nothing seems to be wrong. I’m not depressed, not overwhelmed, nothing. There is no reason for me to feel this way.
Since the doctors can’t figure it out, I am going to. I feel that the only way to make some progress is to become my own guinea pig. I’m starting with eliminating gluten, adding in some light exercise, and praying that God gives me the guidance to know the right moves to make.
I want to be healthy so that I can maximize the time I have with my son, my husband, and enjoying the life God has given me.
As of July 2014, I am starting my new body change. I’m going to figure out what is wrong with me one step at a time.
You’re welcome to join in, watch the progress, or give some encouragement.